I got asked when I "was due"

I am a wedding photographer, but sometimes work for a friend of mine in DFW. I went to help her with a wedding yesterday, and I got asked by one of the guests when I was due. I know it was not meant by the guest badly, and there were several women there that were pregnant. I'm also, not a small girl, by any means, but all I could do was stare at her, wide eyed, and shake my head no. It goes back to that "I don't know what to say" thing. I suppose the most frustrating thing about not being able to have kids, is the expectation that your going to have kids. When I was going though my surgery, I got a note from an acquaintance who had been though something similar. She said the best way to explain how she felt about it was that it was like you were planning a trip. You plan this trip to go to the Caribbean, and you plan for years, save your money, buy the ticket, loose weight (who doesn't want to look great in there swim suit! LOL) buy new beach outfits, pack your bags, right down to the floppy sun hat. Then the day finally arrives, and you leave for the airport, you board the plane and take off from the runway. The next thing you know, the captain of the plane comes on and says that instead of going to the Caribbean, your going to Alaska!!! You feel like you plan everything right, you meet a great man, fall in love, and get married. My husband and I waited several years before going to the Dr.'s to find out what was wrong, because we has certain goals we wanted to meet before having kids. We were doing it the right way. Then we get told all the expectations for our life are not going to happen.

I was having a conversation with a good friend of mine, he said that after my Valentines Day Dr. appointment of Broken Dreams, that I changed. He's right, I did change. I'm not the flirty, fun, sociable girl I was before. But what do you expect from a girl that's standing in an Alaska snow bank in her bikini?