A Visit to the Doctor

I went to my Doctor yesterday for a yearly exam. It always emotionally draining, even though I really like him. He continually tells me not to let this drive me crazy. We talked a lot about why specifically I can't get preggo. It turns out that the endo has separated my ovaries and fallopian tubes. So when I ovulate, the fallopian tubes can't grab the egg, to be fertilized. So my eggs just drop, float and die away. And while that isn't the happiest of thoughts, it was nice to find out exactly WHY, not with a generic, you have endo, so you can't have babies.

My husband and I talked about adoption again, briefly. He asked me a very important question. He asked, "Why do you want to adopt?" I had to think about that. Why do I want to adopt? Partly, because I would like to give a child a good home. But otherwise, I really think its for selfish reasons. I guess I need to do more thinking on that. Honestly, there are lots of *Pros* to not having kids. Like, not having to wipe butts, or noses. Not have to worry about how to pay for college. But then I think, I will not get the joy either.