I don't wanna whine.....okay yes I do!

Okay, so I don't wanna complain, and I'm not usually a kick and scream and throw a temper tantrum kinda girl. But I'm gonna pout here! There are a couple women that I know, who are preggo. I wouldn't call them close friends, but I know them from the photo biz. Here is what I don't get. One of these women, is married to a nice guy, has two kids, a step-son and will have twins in October. This girl constantly has to sell stuff to feed the two kids she has!!! I know times are tough, but the thing is, they were TRYING to get preggo, because this girl wanted a little girl and she had two boys. I also know this woman, who has 6 kids already, she's 40 years old and just found out she is preggo again. Now, that wouldn't so much bother me, I think they make a fairly decent living. However, from what I hear from a friend, her husband abuses her. I don't get it!!! Its JUST NOT FAIR!!! I like both these women, yet I'm so pissed off that they get to have kids and I don't.

4th of July

Today we had our big family get together for the 4th of July Celebration. Went out to the lake, swam, ate lots of great food and had a pretty good time. My husband is always the designated fire marshal for the fireworks that we all set off. He is so fantastic with kids! I watched him as he showed the bigger kids how to set them off safely, and made sure all the little kids got to share in the fun too. One of the many, many hard things about not having kids is that I feel like he is being cheated. He looked like he was having a blast with all the kids, and I regret that he won't get to show *our* kid any of that stuff. I was so proud of how he was with these kids, and it makes me sad, because my husband would have been a fantastic father!